June 18, 2010

My Pregnancy So Far...

May 22: So...I'm pregnant! (5 weeks) So far I feel way less pregnant than I did with Brooklynn. With her I knew right away, even before I took my test. This one kind of came as a surprise. (Which we wanted...we were sort of planning for a surprise.) I have so many mixed emotions right now, our life as a family of three is almost over and for that I'm a little sad. I will miss having just the three of us. I'm sad I can no longer focus all of my attention on Brooklynn. I'm really excited for her to have a baby brother or sister to play with, though. I can't wait to give her that wonderful gift of being a sibling. It will be so fun for her to have another little person for her to play with. I'm both dreading and looking forward to the pregnancy again. I'm already out of breath most of the time, feeling nauseous a lot and peeing more often. I'm already showing a little bit, why do I have to be one of the ones who shows like INSTANTLY? I'm so excited to feel the baby start moving and kicking and feeling so close to another person for 9 months. I'm dreading going through childbirth again, but also hopeful that it will, in fact, be easier the second time around. I'm really nervous to raise two children now instead of just one. I am already so busy and I feel like I'm just keeping my head above water all the time. I don't know how I'll manage being pregnant and do it, let alone raise a 2-year-old and a newborn. I know God will give me the wisdom and the strength, it's just a little crazy in my head right now.

We're keeping it a surprise for now, Josh really wants to tell his family in person, and I want all of our family to know before we start telling other people...and so we are keeping it hush hush. It's so hard. I don't know how people wait so long. Plus, since I'm already showing a little, I want to tell people so they aren't thinking I'm just getting fatter. I really hope I can hide it for another month.

May 31: (6 weeks) Two nights ago I woke up at 2 am for a middle-of-the-night pee. I was so annoyed. Its officially starting.

Yesterday we had a wedding that so many of our friends were at. I really thought someone was going to ask me, but no one did! So I made it through one of the rough spots where we saw everyone. Just a few more weeks of trying to hide it!

Also, Brooklynn is getting really good at pointing to different body parts when you ask her. I ask her "Where is Mommy's nose?" and she points to my nose. I ask her, "Where is Mommy's mouth?" and she points to my mouth. I ask her "Where is Mommy's baby?" and she points to my belly. It is so cute. I think she is getting excited about it. She definitely realizes more than I thought.

June 6: I can STILL sleep on my belly at night! This is very exciting to me because when I was pregnant with Brooklynn I had to stop sleeping on my stomach before I even knew I was pregnant; I kept getting sharp pains in my gut and it just hurt! I am very excited that I can still enjoy this; although it's sadly ending soon, I'm afraid. :(

June: 8 (7 weeks)

On vacation this week...kinda slipped by me that I'm even pregnant.
We went to the zoo today and met up with Erin and Charity. I was so nervous that they would guess that I was pregnant and I'd have to tell them yes before Josh was with me, too. Luckily they didn't say anything.

June 17: I saw Janelle today! She is pregnant, too. She is 18 weeks. I felt as big as she was. Here we are posing with our bellies. :)

June 18: We finally got to tell Josh's family! Woohoo!
We put an "I'm a Big Sister" shirt on Brooklynn and drove up to Michigan with her in it. When we got there we turned her around for her to model her shirt and let everyone kind of "figure it out". It didn't take too long before people were saying, "YAY!" and hugging us and actually making little Brooklynn cry because of all the excitement. She really only slept for about 15 minutes and we woke her up when we got there so she was really out of it. Pretty soon she warmed up and realized that she got to play and do her own thing again so she was happy.

June 22: 9 weeks and my first Birth Center appointment! It was a little crazy to be back but also fun. It turns out I do get to get two ultrasounds this time so I will get one in a week or two? I still have to set the appointment with the ultrasound place. Anyway, I had Anne who is one of the midwives that I had several times with my pregnancy with Brooklynn. She did a pelvic exam and said I felt more like 8 or 9 weeks than 11 or 12. (I was a little nervous I was more pregnant than I thought). She gave me the due date of: JANUARY 29! I think it will probably still be February this time but you never know! Brooklynn was completely all over the place. They are very kid-friendly and are open to your bringing your children to get them exposed...but it was not fun at all. I'm going to probably make most of my appointments later in the day so Josh can come, too and help watch Brooklynn. My favorite part was when she screamed and cried when they took my blood. It reminded me of HER getting her shots....although my arm is the one they pricked. She is so protective. It's so cute.
After my appointment we went to the nearby duck/coy pond. Brooklynn has never been there, which is hard to believe because I've been so many times with kids I've babysat in the past. She loved it and kept pointing at the fish and the geese. We even saw two turtles. We are going to have to go after every appointment now which is fine. Such cheap entertainment.

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